Well, I’m exhausted! I haven’t blogged since I started full time student teaching last year and my goodness, time has flown by! I have my first very own classroom this year, full of some pretty awesome 4th graders. I have to take the time to reflect on the day and all that lead up to it, because as I keep hearing, I only get one first day of my teaching career and that day was today! I cried on my way home. Not because the day was bad by any means, but because it’s just so crazy and overwhelming that I finally made it to this day and made it through while sending home happy smiling students at the end of it all. It’s crazy that I only got through half of my lesson plans…but it was all still a success. I lamented to my teaching partner during our planning period today that I wished it could be next year so I could fix all of my mistakes!
This year is a total learning curve-I know! I can’t be too hard on myself when I’m giving it my 100% best effort and looking out for the education, safety and health of those kids. In planning all summer for my classroom I got lost in the planning of it all, and as soon as those students came in today I was reminded of why I chose this profession. I have 25 bright, kind, silly students to go to work for every day.
I got an email from PD offering a class that I REALLY wanted to take….then saw that it was a week long training and after thinking for a moment I just thought, “no way am I stepping out of my classroom for a whole week a month into my first school year!” I’m sure I’ll be whistling to a different tune a little later on in my career, but right now I’m just thrilled to be where I am.
This year I have so many goals for myself as a new teacher, but I’m recognizing that being a first year teacher, I need to not necessarily narrow those down, but be extremely realistic about them. Think about what I can do now, while still taking care of myself. I was SO proud of myself today-I ate lunch in the staff lounge! On my first day of teaching! I have some really great colleagues and I want to learn as much from them as I can. I also want to make sure I eat lunch every day. One day down. Though it is 8pm and I still haven’t gotten around to dinner…
I’m proud of myself also, for printing my lesson plans that I made on this awesome planning cite, Common Curriculum, and writing all over them after school! I’m determined to support my 2nd year teacher self by taking fantastic notes on what worked this year and what didn’t.
Despite the fact that my plans didn’t go as planned, I met some fantastic students today and I’m ready for a full year of learning and growing together.
Just remembered that I have to finish my weekly newsletter…..ACK!
I think the thing that surprised me the most about my first day in my “real teacher shoes” was that I wasn’t even that nervous once I got up there. I made mistakes, I stumbled on my words, but it just felt right to be there and to be learning from those mistakes and stumbles as I went. I couldn’t feel more prepared to be where I’m at now and I’m so grateful for all the support and my amazing teaching program that supported me in getting here.
Yay 4th grade! Here’s to a fabulous school year!